I had no choise. He just didn`t leave me any of them.
I don`t know when it began. Maybe last spring. Now it is October. It`s pretty good, isn`t it? Sure no. His messages became as cold as he. He didn`t tell me everything, we stopped to speak about different kid staff which always had warmed us, he preferd going outside to a conversation with me. Frankly speaking, I don`t mind the last one because it`s normal to want to go for a walk instead of hanging up at home. But he did it every month, every week, every day. Each girl will feel like the most loneliest creature in the world. I`m not an exception. I had a feeling that he didn`t need me anymore. I was afraid that one day he would come and just break up with me. Instead of it, everytime when he came we had a peachy time and I was totally over the moon with him. We laughed a lot, went to the cinema like other normal couples, had a great sensetive sex with a plenty of kisses and huges. We went for a walk on the coast and spent a lot of time there. It was really incredible. But you know, when he returned in Kiew we(expecily me) got th same shit, that we had hadbefore. We had decided to write paper letters to each other becaus they are better and more pomantic. I got only 3 letters. And I sent 5 or 6 ones. It isn`t fair.
It has begun a new studing year. He attends a lot of activities. It`s cool. He is such a regular fellow that decided to spend his spare time with profit. Honestly, I`m proud of him. On the other hand he comes home exhausted as a hell and says to me «I`m too tired to write smth. I would like to have a rest».Okay, I undestand everything but please speak with me sometimes. Our conversations look like «hello what`s up» and all. Earlier we could talk for hours, but now it takes only 15 minutes.
After these meetings in the Internet I always cry a lot. I do miss him. I want to touch, kiss, hug, caress, cuddle up to him. At least I can write him, but he seems to want to sleep only. How can I keep calm ans smile? He has said to me that I wanted too much and everything was alright, I spoiled his precious time with my complaints and problems. I don`t understand it. I`m in despire.
So here I am.